Post call day 2

Post call day2....
the first call ever i haev become HO...
is sucked!!!! really sucked....
tired till wanna faint...
maybe need to resus me first ...
i dun ever touch the bed during call..
got 16 new admissions....
but i take damn long to do the case...
and when reach mid night...i ad in confusion stage...
imagine...wearing scrub suit..n nike sportshoes...super comforatble..
yet i got blisterssss on my foot...
see...how long i been 'running'...literally running....or brisk walking...
my reg, Dr.Lie saw me so tired post call..thus so generous n kind to give me half day off..
even he said i can go bac fr 1pm..
but i stay bac n finish some parts of my jobs till 3+
i really not meant to burden my partner, andrew so much...
as this time..he been backed me up lots...n helped me lots...
but i m really in confusion stage...cannot remember things...
even walking or typing i can fall asleep....
n super suffering....
but...this is wat the prob started....
i make him go back on 10pm that day....is my faulth....
he got say sth lar....is truth....but...even though know is my faulth yet i feel so upset...
he asked me never ever take post call leave again....n i need to take care of my pts well enough..
as during call...that i have so many patient...once i run the blood ix...i didn't trace it..as i dun have time of it...really no time....no time for food...for sleep..for drink..for toilet....
thus...some of my pts got electrolyte imbalances....thus, andrew is the 1 cleaning all the mess up for me....
he got say sth serious to me lar...but i know he is right...
he is a nice guy....yet he got mad w me....prove that i m really bad n useless partner lar..
feel super guithy n useless....
i ad try my best...try to work faster...try to get things done correctly.....
but yet...still a bunch of mess.....
damn depressing lar....need ice cream now....

2nd Day in Vascular

today....is ok lar...
as ppl around me all r kind lar...
they treat me so well....without scolding...
but i do think i deserve the scold...
as i did sth really stupid today....
aikss....got a nurse called me out to speak to the radiologist in charge regarding my patient in icu...
thus...i been tried my best to find the nurse....then her radiologist this afternoon...
n the radiologist told me that gastrograffin study have been done for my patient n showed major leakage anastomosis...
thus been keeping this info...n till evening...told my registra.....
n he is in great surprise....
as OUR PATIENT DID NOT HAVE ANASTOMOSIS...
which means.....the nurse been called the wrong HO...
and i am damn idiot to entertain her....and do think is my patient's problem...
plus....if really got leakage in anastmosis..i should inform surgeon immediately...
not to wait so long lar....even the radiologist told me that he had informed the surgeon ....
but i still do think i need to inform once more time....as is my part of job...
aiks...but i m damn stupid lar...
so blur.....
thus..really hate to pick up call lar....
when call comes....must be sth happenning....or ask u to do stuffs lar....
one day pick up more than 20 calls.....is damn irritating lol....
and most of the calls is calling for the wrong HO...
Plz lar...i am team1 A not team1 B....
thus....stop calling the wrong HO to review pt.....
and dun beg me to come to the patient that i am not in charge...as they cannot find the correct HO...
is really not my team's patient.....so, it is not a right thing to do lar...
then...i m so easy to find meh...
y every1 tend to call me de.....???
swt....
aikss....wat to do.....
luckily i got a very efficient partner, andrew lar...
he has been backed up for me since then.....
but felt damn sorry n embarrassed lar...
as he is doing my part as well...
i should learn to do faster...n know much more...
in order not to drag him down lar....
thanks ya ,andrew....n sorry as well....
i will try my best to work faster lar....

P.S i am been told by my colleague that i walk too slow....OMG......there is even footsore on my foot even i had wore super ugly but comfortable leather shoes ad.....too slow walking? swt....ya,...i supposed to run de,...compare to them.....aikss....maybe next time go buy skating shoes better.... i dun even got a chance to sit down to drink water...is very unhealthy leh..to drink so little water....per day....aikss.... wat to do....try my best to pick up lar